love or affection

im 16 and i have no idea whats going on in my life.....because maybe im already use to the good side of me..i mean the one who always studies n reads...bt right now...its a turning point in my life......................i know him for almost 4 years.....n i thought it was a crush...bt its barely nt a crush.....cuz i cant get over it...wherever i go he's there...then hw am i supposed to work it out,..my friends want the old sham back but its hard....all that i can do is pretend to be happy even if im not..cause thats life full of drama......huh....so tired of friends giving advice...blah..blah...blah..i dont have a chance to think...even if i do...i never get the conclusion...it isnt as easy as it seems........i miss you......i miss your charming look that swept me off my feet...the magic in your voice....that makes me go crazy...........................haih..whatever others say about you....i listen...but....its always........nt true...u see..........i hv faith in you...eventhough u dont know that theres someone madly in love with you here...but still......im always here to help you out..,in anything,........u will work it out.....i hv confidence...in you................hope you know it soonn...........i miss you.....................

life

it isnt as easy as what i thought it would be....going through everyday......without what i wanted is hell..............im so sorry.........mom..............bt im nt happy like what u thought i was....material is not what i want

first day on blog

first day on blog ..had a though time making it.....ppppphhhhheeeeewwwww......made my buddies wait for me....while chatting on fb...